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Spencer Ng. A very nice guy. (:
Hello there, I'm a retarded boy who resides in super sunny Singapore.I like tissue paper but I'm not a fan of sausages. I love veggies. But i hate broccoli, and all kinds of vegetables. I've figured that I already lost my sanity a long time ago. And so, blah blah blah. It goes on. I love the SUN.But im still as white asever. I am a SAINT too! Blue blood runs in my vessels. :D UP AND ON~ Ta~DA! STAY CHEERFUL ALWAYS, EARTHLINGS! :) THE SUN IS ALWAYS SHINING. THE MOON IS ALWAYS BRIGHT. KEEP SMILING! |
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This blog is opened by Spencer to accomodate Spencer's mindless musings and daily rantings.ALL i have left is BALLS AND NOTHING ELSE.! I love myself. Do you love yourself? tagboard
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March 31, 2009
I finally decided my choices. where to go after secondary school. 1st choice: SAJC. 2nd choice: CJC. 3rd choice: SRJC. 4th choice: Ngee Ann poly ( business studies)............ Last Choice: MI. haha. oh my. those are my choices. of course have to work really hard. but still, God decides where i should be. Of course, do my part to study hard and the rest in His hands.
March 28, 2009
Where are you, God? Where are you in my life? I need you badly. Im going to die soon. Please.
March 27, 2009
The "best day" of my life. sarcasm. that day was months ago.. Dont know why someone keep showing up in my mind. :( I cant seem to focus on anything. All the time, it just seems everything in my life revolves around that person. Spencer, wake up. Time to start preparing for your O levels. stop thinking of anything, except your studies and God. Have you ever wondered why are we here? What's our purpose here? I wish I could just go meet God sooner. God, please. I beg you. Take me away.the whole day, i had the song leaving by the starting line up stuck in my head. Please dont leave me without saying goodbye~ Its really nice. Wonderful lyrics. [I am the wine, you are the branches. Whoever remains in me and I in him will bear much fruit, because without me you can do anything. John 15:5] How true. We are nothing without God. But still, many people fail to see that they need God. Is that our purpose here? To spread the gospel? Today, I feel inspired. I thought about setting up an orhpanage for kids. Providing them education and lodging till they are old enough. Of course not being there all the time, I will get a local to run it and probably visit whenever I can. Im not sure. Haha. Maybe im dreaming. Dreaming is free. But most likely, it should be in Asia... or somewhere near Europe. At the same time, I can reach out to them, with God's help. That will be wonderful. Oh well. In the end, dreams may never be true. March 24, 2009
Can you leave me here alone now?I don't wanna hear ya say, that you know me That I should be always doin what you say Cause I'm tryin to get through today And there's one thing I know I don't wanna think about you I don't wanna think about you When I wake up here tomorrow Things will never be the same, cause I won't wait Cause you won't change, and you'll always be this way Now I'm gonna get through today And there's one thing I know I don't wanna think about you Or think about me Don't wanna figure this out I don't wanna think about you Or think about nothin Don't wanna talk this one out This time, I won't let you bring me down Won't let you shut me out This time I know, I don't wanna think about you. March 23, 2009
HAHA. Talked to vanessa ching last night. she said i should be sad about my common test results. haha. though i dont really care cause, nevermind. reasons. VANESSA: Yes. I will be sad. and work hard. and play hard. * said in a reluctant manner* anyway, hows everyone doing today? O levels is really horrible. I hate taking exams. I am so.............. gong to die. nevermind. Always look on the bright side of life. toot toot, toot ~~~~~ toooooot. bad singing. bad singing. since when can i sing? LOL. daphne ang made me call my mom today. cause.. i dint go for holiday lesson just to play HANDBALL. come on. its way more FUNNER. okay bad english. fun. :D handball. smashing balls into nets. even better, into faces of your opponents. I joined floorball and handball for interclass games. whee. gonna be fun. i dont know how to play floorball. but i guess i will just swing and HOPEFULLY, hit someone's face. :) till he or "she" bleeds. notice the "she"? yeah, cause heard lots of nerds and geeks going to be play floorball. I dont know. maybe i shall be nice to them uh? okay. i doubt i will really hit them. since im such a nice guy. anyway, going to muggggggggggg now.. till the sun and moon meet. OH YEAH. wait... is it possible? i dont care!buhbuhbuhbuhbuhbuhbuhbuhBYE! March 21, 2009
what can i say? I'm dying on the inside. something happened today, plus many other stuff that went on the past few days. nobody knows what actually.. screw everything. nobody to talk to. i guess im already dead. wish everything would go back to the past. but, it will never happen. im on my own. fight spencer. keep fighting. prove them wrong. always jumping to conclusions. dont even have a single clue to how i really feel on the inside. they dont understand me. im tired. really. tired of everything around me. this is it. im done. im not going to be bothered by anything ever again. leaving all these behind. keep fighting, spencer. tear those who are in your way apart. even if they are close to you. tear them apart.
March 20, 2009
Woke up it was 7, waited till 11 to have my breakfast.Took a shower. And on my way to meet alynna. for our study date. when i reached potong pasir mrt, i decided to wait for her at the mrt entrance... Having not seen her for the past 4 years, i wondered how she looked like. then... this girl popped up. IT WAS HER. haha. it was quite awkward at first like.. we dint know what to say. haha. but then, as we walked to macs together, we talked a bit. and it dint seem so weird after all. haha. sat down.. took our work out. studied.... then we started to talk, and observe people around us. like, we observed this little girl enjoying her meal. she looked so happy. haha. what do you expect, kids. she then said to me, you were once like that. I looked at her, stunned. haha. what? wasnt she once like that too? haha. nevermind. then we started observing lots of things. then........... there was this old man sitting behind me. he started sleeping. he dint move. i thought he was dead. alynna said that we should take a picture of him. but too bad, even before we could, he was awake. haha. it was really funny, talking to her. after a long time of chatting, we decided to leave. i had tuition. she had to go to the airport. her mum is BACK. haha. she really misses her mum. and yeah.. thats abt it. that was the fun part of today. To ALYNNA: I am not gay. :D and stay cheerful. meet up someday soon. haha.decided not to go to physics tuition. tired. after a long day with alynna plus chinese tuition. i decided to stay home. and watch tv. MEET THE ROBINSONS. yes, i know. im slow. but it looks interesting, so i decided to watch. wonderful story. touching. i wanna cry... :/ that's abt it. toodles. March 19, 2009
Sore throat... Weird Voice..... Headaches... Flu.... Fever... what can be worse? AIDS!Tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone the worst is over you can have the best of me we got older but we're still young we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up ~~~ im in love with best of me by the starting line. amazing song. funny music video. jammed with leonard earlier on. played face down and sleeping with the light on. haha. fun fun. oops, alynna got quite angry cause i dint call her along. sorry alynna. :) ask you along next time alrightie? hehe. To all those having syf soon...... All the best. :D yeah. i love tight shirts. that shows off the nipples. its really cool. haha. okay, im weird. as in really tight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. never tried before. today's physics lesson. Current blah blah.. cant be bothered. tired. Phone have radiation. Makes your balls sterile.thats what Michael Lim said. my favourite teacher. i got many teachers i like. Mr Lam. Mr Michael. KYM!! these 3 are super funny teachers/dumbass.. one tells jokes. the other makes physics lesson so funny with his crazy, mad scientist behavour. and the last one makes fun of aliens. UIC oh UIC lalalalalalalalala~~~ random. I just heard that advert on the tv. gotta rest more, spencer. you got a study date tmr. :D toodles, sheekalamalima pooshpiaobingbong.... random. ... March 18, 2009
sick, tired... a lot on my mind lately. is it really my fault? do you have the right to blame me? you are always blaming others for your mistakes. you never know what you have done wrong. so just shut up. and think. what are your brains for? hello?.. what can i say about you. you are one... sore... ass. thats why nobody likes you on the first day of school in sec1. grow up. you think you are right all the time.. truth is.. No. yeah, that hurts, but too bad. stop being an ass.Get out of my life. luckily, this year is my last year in this school. I hope i dont see you anywhere, anymore. One more time you stare at me during classes or what, you know what will happen to you. Try.. since you always test people to their limits. Go away. March 17, 2009
Hi all. :D today was a long and tiring day.. also, i fell ill. ugh. anyway, in the morning had A maths lesson. gosh. i feel so far behind.... like damn lost. gotta buck up. and then.. i had chemistry. heh. anyway, I won everyone in fifa09. haha. my friends kept taking turns to challenge me. Gosh. i cant believe it lah. haha. I AM VICTORIOUS. on sunday... we had an ypms outing. brought them to sentosa. super fun. haha. we played truth or dare. my sister and her good friend had to do the chicken dance on the beach. but the funniest was when they sang the butterflysong in front of these few.... tourists. haha. what the pok lah. it was hilarious. oh oh. then they went to this lifeguard and keep saying thankyou, we feel safe when you are around us and bla. HAHAHAHAHA. helu dared me to shout that i am gay!!!!!!!!! but, of course i dint. who wanna be known as a homo. man.. then, it started to rain. we had to share umbrellas. i shared with my sister while joy, jessie and rachel shared. later on... joy decided to be "free" and just walked in the rain. jessie then shared with my sis. and i had no choice but to share with rachel leong. haha. then as we walked together, we saw this woman squatting down, with an umbrella. SUPER FUNNY. rachel leong was so amused that she started giggling. I was like, what the pok that woman doing, first thought, china.... cause she looked like she's from china. heh. so thats abt it... we then went home and stuff. that outing was ruined by RAIN!!!!!!!!!!!! i really wish it dint rain. :/okay ppl. toodles. im tired. March 13, 2009
Haha. Today was a really fun DAY! school ended at 10.15am. then we went to collect our results. haha. mine was horrible. heh. must work harder. then i went to chinese teacher class wait for yonghui and timo to do their test. andre was collecting his pails from Joanna chew for the ncc camp. haha. joanna chew... lol, when we were sec one we were like so into her. like, my gosh.. she is so hot. but now, HAHAHAHAHA. okay, anyway... then we went to plaza sing for lunch. alastair jerome and an unknown number called me. like kinda lots of times. i dint pick up. sms me, i dint reply. LoL. i already planned not to go for debate match today. in the mornin. haiz. haha... im tired. they were like.. crap. both tried to be second speaker. and "fought" it out. lol? alastair wanted to be so he could be the best speaker again. selfish. jerome wanted, cause he dint want to screw up as 3rd speaker also, he wanted the best speaker. cant they be like me? win for the team and not personal glory? i never eyed on the best speaker award. though i have a chance to win it. but, i was more focused on the the win for the school. i think alastair will win it today. he is way BETTER than jerome. jerome reads........... with a very.. fake accent. super funny. and he stresses on the wrong words. bad reading. bad reading.. haha. alastair looks more professional. i really wonder who replaced me. anyway, there were other problems too. thats why i dint go. dint feel like. anyway, after the movie. we went to play pool. HAHAHA. I WAS THE BEST. yay. i beat VINOTH. dude, u last time own me like.. mad.. now.. hehehehehehe. aw. so sad. rachel leong is sick. she has fever. friends out there, pray for her. :( hahahahahaha. okay. gtg.toodles. March 12, 2009
Today.. was a really tiring day. trying to rush out my speech. When i was walking home. I just felt this need...and want to meet God. and just... escape from all my troubles. and life. i cant wait to meet God. haiz this world is corrupted.The greatest love that anyone could ever know That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul And 'til I see You face to face And grace amazing takes me home I'll trust in You With all I am I live to see Your Kingdom come And in my heart I pray you'd let Your will be done And 'til I see You face to face And grace amazing takes me home I'll trust in You I will live to love You I will live to bring You praise I will live a child in awe of You You are the voice that called the universe to be You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me And 'til I see You face to face And grace amazing takes me home I'll trust in You You alone are God of all You alone are worthy Lord And with all I am my soul will bless Your Name~~ toodles. March 11, 2009
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven It's true. March 11, 2009
Good morning. (: its 11 am now.. im not in school. tired. haha. anyway! Talking to shiri now. she is like making fun of me. damn.. Girls. tsk. SHIRI STOP SAYING I LOOK WEIRD! wth lah. anyway.. so much things to do. i thank God for the march holidays. heh. but i still got school. so.. yeah. :/ EUNICE TAN AND I are talking!!!! my primary schoolmate whom i lost contact for 3 years. we finally started talking again. so fun. haha. im bored. dont feel like doing anything. Geography........ volcanoes. blah. i forgot everything. how can i go take o levels? haha. anyway... i just realised today got people having e learning day... Yeening, Shiri. but not jasmine. JASMINE CHAO. you are the bad girl lah... use laptop in shcool talk to ppl on msn. she is the best. lol. okay.Goodbye people. Jesus you're my superhero. March 10, 2009
hehe. march 8 was my birthday. i was so happy. that day, i went to celebrate with my friends. :D they were so nice. haha. En lai as there too. He born on the same day as me too! 8 march 1993. HAHAHAHA. cool LAH! anyway.. yesterday, i wanna die. i feel super down. wish had someone i could go to. anyway TODAY! lol. boring day. right now, im listening to... relient k's be my escape acoustic version. they are very good. haha. im sad about a few things. few of my friends are leaving church to another church. I really hope God tell them otherwise. but... God has his plans. heh. VANESSA CHING!!!!!!!!! thank you so much. haha. you wished me happy birthday yesterday. you remembered. haha. and yes, we dont really talk to each other! you always so busy. haha. see you in church soon. and yes, i will wave and say hi. i wont ignore you. GAhaha. o level coming. Im going to do well. 6 A1s. heehee. then SAJC. UP BOYS! :D :D :D :D yes...... they sajc school song changed it to up saints. cause there are girls too. darn.... TSK. anyway, SMILE PPL! GOD IS THERE FOR YOU. lalalalala~
march 5, 2009
haha. the past few days was retarded. shan and charis keep asking me to edit my post ( on march 1... i think? the one with the hot girl) and stuff. I dont MEAN ANYTHING. IM NOT SAYING SHE IS UGLY. RAWR. haha. i was just too lazy to type extra lines and sentences... Today school rocks. I BEAT ANDRE IN FIFA09. YEAH MAN! as well as kohong. haha. 3 wins, 0 draws, 0 losses. hehehehehe. thrashed kohong 3-0. and andre, 3-1 and 1-0. hahah. best thing was that he used ac milan and barca. I used Manchester united. gahahaa. well, we played during chinese lesson. who cares about chinese? Also, i skipped CME. Can you believe it?? we still have civics and moral education. are they saying im an asshole? and need help in my behaviour and attitude? tsk tsk tsk. im a good boy okay. haha. and today... i decided! Im going to LEARN HOW TO COOK. :D :D :D :D well.. some ppl think its gay or what but.. i want to learn. oh oh oh. bake too! (: i hate school....................................................................................... Lalala~
March 4, 2009
I woke up. feeling super tired. went to school. and had A maths test. Gosh. damn hard lah. i dint feel like doing it. haha. anyway.. we had Peter Tay to take over instead cause our teacher not in school. nice.... I FELT LIKE I WAS GOING INTO ARMY EARLIER CAN?!!?!?! *gentlemen, do you understand? * * i show you respect, i expect respect in return..* hahahaha. oh my. super funny. anyway.. THANK YOU SHAN. a faithful tagger. haha. I cant believe it lah. shan, thanks. O levels coming. Im going to cry, die, call police. HEHE. okay. Im still feeling sad over some stuff. haiz. why? why must i face all these.. ugh. God will walk me through this because of His love and faithfulness. Goodnight people. (: my mum is making me noise again.. to ask me to study. hahaha. oh well, shall be a good boy. as i have always been. :D
March 3, 2009
It's over, it's overTwelve days later and I can't start over I left her, she hates me We've been friends since 1990 Don't tell me it's over I need you more than the sun She's telling me that we're done I can't believe that it's over I need you more than the sun She's telling me that we're done I can't believe that it's over I should've known all along It's over, it's over Three months later but I can't console her I'm run down, I'm clinging Left a message, but her phone's not ringing It's over, so over The sun is shining but my heart is sober Pretending I'm alright Sleep all day cause I stay up all night Don't tell me it's over I need you more than the sun She's telling me that we're done I can't believe that it's over I need you more than the sun She's telling me that we're done I can't believe that it's over I should've known all along I should've known all along I need you more than the sun I need you more than the sun I need you more than the sun I need you more than the sun You're telling me that we're done I can't believe that it's over You're telling me that we're done It's over, it's over, it's over It's over, it's over, we're done I need you more than I thought This past week I learned a lot And now you tell me it's over I need you more than I thought. This past week i learned a lot. And now you tell me it's over. Im tired. Im worn out. I hope I will start to feel better. Today started in the morning.. i woke up. did my usual stuff then went to school. I dint switch on my phone. I dint want to. I didn't do something which i normally do. felt weird. School was normal at least my mind was focusing on something else. Something i found out last night made me sad. I want to cry but its not worth crying. I pray one day Person A and Person B will be together again. Tomorrow A maths test. Better study and not think of anything else. Yup. March 2, 2009
 God's creations.. are just so beautiful. Today... i woke up feeling sad. lost. tired. depressed. all the negative feelings. cause i was thinking of someone. haiz. then the day started to get better.. with pe. then lessons. with my friends, i felt better. when sch ended. it was back to the same feelings. I wish i could just leave everything behind me. shall cheer up. To that person, i wish you are fine and still as cheeful as before. i miss you badly, wish everything will be back to the old days. Take care. March 1, 2009
Today was a lovely sunday. went to church in the morning. no ypms therefore just had lunch with friends, including rachel. she must be really bored cause she is the only girl. Sorry rachel. haha. i'll try to talk to you more. anyways... Cornelius dint come. he is sick. how sad. we all miss you corns. also, yesterday i went to have dinner at botak jones with 2 friends. :D haha. we then walked around.. and saw 2 lesbians. one of them... was so HOT. OH MY GOSH. i wanna bake cookies on her. hehe. the other.... was like.. -.- a girl acting as a guy. what do you expect? haha. he reminds me of my classmate jerome. very white. haha. like a sheet of paper. and looks like a rabbit. WOAH! i was like.. is that girl blind? why are all the beautiful girls getting ugly guys and all the hot guys are getting ugly girls? whats THIS! But im an exception, Im a HOT GUY with average girls. maybe slightly more, slightly less than average. haha. I dont care about looks. Okay! Anyway because of this incident, i told myself. the next relationship i go into.. that girl gotta be, my kind of girl. YEAH! :D Aiya.. see what God plans for me. haha. anyway, after that.. i suddenly heard the hot girl calling a woman MUMMY. so did the.. "guy". WTH. they are actually sisters. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. i was laughing like mad. so did my other two unnamed friends. sorry my unnamed friends, i cant say who you are. if not.. my head will be rolling.. okay. thats all. im going to.. study. ugh. why why why why why why why??? study sucks. well, too bad. everyone goes through it. ha!
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